[He doesn't really know what to do with her thanks. He can't just brush it off with a joke, act like it's not a big deal, because it was, but he still just feels... guilty, so guilty even if it's fixed, because there's no way this is going to be the first time something like this happens to someone who's trying to help him. Captain Stacy had been right: he's going to make enemies, and sometimes, he's not going to be enough to keep the people he loves safe.
It always makes him think about James, and how his solution was just to cut himself off, keep himself as safe as possible from making those sort of connections in the first place. Peter doesn't know if he can do that, and he's seen the kind of damage that life does to you, anyway. If only there was an easier way to balance it all.]
He's a good guy, [He finally says, once his throat's able to unstick.] And I mean, Dr. Connors was a good guy, too, before, you know. Stuff happened.
It was really messed up. And I couldn't just let that happen, you know? He didn't deserve that.
[That feels easier to say than you're welcome, because he still really doesn't think he deserves to be thanked. If it hadn't been for him, Captain Stacy never would have needed to be there in the first place, and Connors wouldn't have gone crazy. All because he'd found that stupid algorithm.
A heavy sigh escapes him, and suddenly he feels kind of old and tired, because all of that feels like a really long time ago now, but at the same time, it doesn't. Like he's never going to really be able to fully forgive himself for what happened. But he tries to make himself smile, kisses her hand, too.]
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It always makes him think about James, and how his solution was just to cut himself off, keep himself as safe as possible from making those sort of connections in the first place. Peter doesn't know if he can do that, and he's seen the kind of damage that life does to you, anyway. If only there was an easier way to balance it all.]
He's a good guy, [He finally says, once his throat's able to unstick.] And I mean, Dr. Connors was a good guy, too, before, you know. Stuff happened.
It was really messed up. And I couldn't just let that happen, you know? He didn't deserve that.
[That feels easier to say than you're welcome, because he still really doesn't think he deserves to be thanked. If it hadn't been for him, Captain Stacy never would have needed to be there in the first place, and Connors wouldn't have gone crazy. All because he'd found that stupid algorithm.
A heavy sigh escapes him, and suddenly he feels kind of old and tired, because all of that feels like a really long time ago now, but at the same time, it doesn't. Like he's never going to really be able to fully forgive himself for what happened. But he tries to make himself smile, kisses her hand, too.]
I really missed you.